Reflect

You know what’s crazy? The fact that I seem to forget information only at the times when I need it most.

I was reading through James, and literally like 2 verses in it goes straight into giving you advice. For me that’s perfect. Maybe it’s because I’m a millennial and I love to just get right to the point without beating around the bush... because I have just about zero patience (another thing I need to work on).

The chapter goes straight into talking about seeing trials as a joy, and it got me thinking about the last 6 months of my life. To be honest, the last 6 months of my life have collectively been the hardest period of time I’ve ever been through; yet, when I look back now I can confidently say that I’ve never been in a better place, both mentally and spiritually. Maybe that sounds weird coming out of my mouth, but I know that it’s true. Now having gone through those trials, I can look back and see the changes -- see why things happened, see why I was holding back tears on my way to work everyday. And you know what? I can honestly reflect and say it was worth it. Sometimes I would look up and just wanna yell at God and call Him out for making everything happen to me, but as soon as I’d clench my fist and look up, just about to tell the Creator of the Universe why he was wrong, all I could think about was Job and everything he went through. The fact is, what I was going through wasn’t even on the same scale. So I’d kinda just talk to God and be like “C’mon man, did it have to happen this way?” then shake my head and kinda laugh realizing that it was my own fault. I made this happen to me, not Him. And you know what? The entire time I was going through all of this, James 1 didn’t come to my head at all.

Why do I seem to forget information only at the times when I need it most?

I guess that’s the point of a daily walk. It’s not because you learn something brand new every time, but that it reminds you of what you already know. That’s something I need to remember. I mean, that makes sense, if you go running everyday it’s not like you’re doing something you‘ve never done before, but making sure you maintain your health. In the same way, I gotta run spiritually everyday. I gotta remember that trials are a gift. Please, Sterling, don’t forget that next time a trial comes. Please.

Sterling Grinnell