Where Are You Going?

Do you know why you do what you do? What are your dreams? Why are they your dreams? I know I just kind of went 0 to 100, but have you ever thought about that? The other day I was laying in my bed looking up at the top of my bunk bed; thinking about what I had to do next to reach my next goal, and I just like got hit with this thought: “Where am I going?”

Recently I have noticed with the different things that I have been starting that it’s really important to know where you’re going, because it helps keep you on track. For example, knowing the end goal of my YouTube channel, knowing why I write this blog every week, and things like that. For some reason the thought came into my head, “Where am I going with my life?”-- and I realized that I had to think for a second. What are my actual dreams? I realized that my goal is comfort; I don’t need a massive house on the beach or anything like that. I just don’t want to have to worry about money, or housing, or relationship issues, or anything. I just want to be comfortable.

I was kind of shocked at that moment when I realized that that was an absolutely horrible life goal, and that I was basically dedicating myself to it. Comfort?! That’s what I want out of life? To be comfortable?! I started to think about what my life goal should be. What is my point? Just like the businesses and side things I’m running, without an end goal, I won’t be able to keep my life on track. Sure, there’s always the Sunday School answer “to glorify God,” but what the heck does that even mean? I’ve heard that so many times that I’m totally numb to that phrase, it actually kind of makes me mad. We say that without even thinking twice about it.

I don’t want my life to be based on a goal that is so vague I don’t even know what it means. To be honest, it’s really hard to come up with a specific goal that nails down the "point" of my life, because it’s life. There’s kinda a lot that goes into it. So I guess the end goal for me is that I want be someone that takes people with me toward what’s right. Thinking about that sucks because I realize that despite the blogs I’ve written in the past, I barely even follow my own advice. How dumb is that. I noticed that, for most things in life, if you want to get anywhere with them, you have to be consistent. Choosing to live this way is something that I will have to do everyday that I wake up and for the rest of my life. Talk about a challenge.  Whether or not I ever reach that goal, it’s a good one to have, and that’s enough to keep me on track in my life -- and that’s all I need. For everyone reading this, I don’t know who you are, but do you really know where you’re going? Why you’re studying what you’re studying? Why you wake up in the morning? If not, you need to get yourself together before life slips away from you, and you realize you’re totally off track way after it’s too late. C’mon, take care of yourself, live with intentions.

Sterling Grinnell